Provision

I am writing this because I want to remember, to declare and to celebrate.  To tell others and to remind myself of God's faithfulness, kindness and provision.

Earlier this year I found out I needed to move.  Due to a family situation I could no longer stay where I was.  It wasn't something I wanted to happen and I was angry.  It took a long time to come to terms with the reality that my willpower was not strong enough to make it go away, I couldn't pray it away, or will it away, I had to accept it.

I sometimes think if I pray hard enough God will do what I want him to, that he will make the pain go away.  God however does not seem to be in the business of waving a magic wand to make troubles disappear.  He will walk with us and give us peace whatever situation we face, but we have to walk through it.  He will walk with us and we can know his presence, peace, wisdom, power and comfort.  All of who he is beside us, within us even.

This was going to be a testimony about God providing me with a house, a fridge, a freezer and all I need.  But the reality is so much bigger than all of that.  God has given himself and not just his gifts.  He has provided for all my needs, emotionally, relationally, physically, spiritually and in every way.  He sees our deepest need and meets it in his way.

God wants a relationship with us, not where we only ask him for what we think we need but where we seek his heart and make his desires our desires.  Not where we are seeking to do good things or be good people.  But where we seek his heart, and his desire for us, for our family, our hometown and our nation.  What is on his heart....