The sufficiency of God

The sufficiency of God.

Today I am challenged by the fact that I seek to be self-reliant and not God reliant.

I am challenged by the fact that in preparing for my holidays I worried and bought things I needed and only prayed and asked God to provide what I could not find.  He did so so well.  But I am humbled that I did not ask him first.  He has provided for me so many times and blessed me with exactly what I have needed.  And yet I worry about what I will wear and whether I will have everything I need.

I am challenged that I should seek first his kingdom.  That I should seek him first.  I once heard the phrase that Jesus should be our first resource and not our last resort.

I am also challenged by what it means to seek first his kingdom.  Most of my prayers are selfish in nature and not kingdom driven.   I am single and in a sense have no one else to think about. And yet I know that life is found in the will of God and not my own will.

I am out of the habit of asking what that is.

Lord help me to remember you.  Thank you for music and for whispering to me.  Thank you for reminding me of you.  Please help me to live life forever listening to you, tasting of you and being satisfied in you.  I am sorry for seeking other things.  For worrying about my image.  Lord please protect us as we travel tomorrow.  Please lead me to pray in a way that honours you.  Please show me how I can be investing in your kingdom everyday.